My Story
I was born into a broken beginning.
My mother had five children. Two passed away.
I have one older brother from a different father, and one younger brother from the same parents.
When I was two years old, my mother became seriously ill and passed away.
My father abandoned her while she was dying. He chose another woman and never looked back.
Before my mother died, she tried to secure a future for us.
My younger brother was given to a wealthy family who could provide stability.
I was not wanted by my aunt’s family because they did not like girls.
My mother publicly searched for someone to adopt me.
Two or three families were interested, but she chose relatives on her side of the family—
a family with no daughters, who truly wanted a girl.
That is how I gained three more brothers.
My adoptive father took care of me and provided a good education.
But I also grew up under strict control from my aunt.
I did not feel free. I did not feel like I belonged.
At 18–19, I fell in love for the first time.
Deep inside, I hoped someone would take me away from that life.
I studied accounting at vocational college.
I took out a loan to continue my education and graduated with debt—17,000 baht.
I had to start working immediately.
At 22, I became pregnant.
I earned 4,700 baht a month and stayed in that job for two years.
Later, I moved to the private sector, earning 6,500–8,000 baht.
I had a dream: to travel the world.
But my English was level zero.
I separated from my child’s father when he chose someone “better.”
I understood. I let go. I didn’t chase.
But the pain was heavy. I had to see a psychiatrist while my child was still very young.
I lost more than 10 kilograms.
Those were the hardest years of my life.
Eventually, I moved on.
I met another Thai partner.
He was kind—very kind.
But he was afraid his parents would not accept me because I already had a child.
We stayed together for five years.
We talked about the future. Planned the future.
But in that future, I was not included.
I asked him for a computer. He bought it for me.
Through that, I discovered Hi5, MSN, and the internet.
I saw snow for the first time—through a webcam—talking to an American friend.
That was when I realized:
The world is bigger than the life I was living.
I decided it was time to choose my own future.
Before we broke up, he asked me to marry him.
But I chose to walk toward the life I dreamed of.
I resigned from my job and moved to Bangkok.
(To be continued.)